Surrender

My hands hold safely to my dreams, clutching tightly not one has fallen. So many years I’ve shaped each one, reflecting my heart showing who I am. Now you’re asking me to show what I am holding oh so tightly. Cant open my hands cant let go. Does it matter? Should I show you? Cant you let me go? Surrender, surrender you whisper gently. You say I will be free I know, but cant you see my dreams are me. Say you have a plan for me and that you want the best for my life. Told me the world had yet to see what you could do with one that’s committed to your call. I know of course what I should do, and I cant hold these dreams forever. If I give them now to you will you seek them away forever or can I dream again?

I am reminded of a story that we all know about the rich young ruler. He asked Jesus what could he do to enter in the kingdom of heaven. Jesus replied, sell all you have and follow me. the young man left in sorrow for he had great wealth. My interpretation of what he actually wanted as for the young man to surrender himself to the will of God. Sometimes I wonder if the man had just said sure maybe he wouldn’t have even had to sell all his possessions. Maybe Jesus just wanted him to be willing to surrender all.

I know in my own life I have experienced times when I had to lay down my pride and what I had planned for the will of God to be manifested in my life. I remember when I was faced with the decision to end my somewhat musical *career* so to speak. I had built up what I thought was intended for my life when in fact God had a whole different plan for me. And when I gave Him my everything and gave him my dreams He led me down a way I never dreamed of. I felt a new calling to the youth and music ministry I had never had before. God opened doors for me to minister to young people and to see the change in their lives and be there for them. He has also renewed the desire to see the promises he has in store for me.

Surrender isn’t always easy for us. It involves admitting our weaknesses. To understand that we are nothing and God is sovereign and supreme ruler in our lives. Until we give him ultimate control we are running our own lives which in the end leads to destruction. I never knew what my life could be like when I gave it to God until I did. I gave him my dreams, my life, my time, my heart, and my future. My trust is in him and him alone and he will take care of me and has always done so. I surrender all, I surrender all. All to thee my blessed savior. I surrender all.